Life has been moving very quickly recently, and at times I've really had to hang on or I would lose my focus. I finished a challenging, yet rewarding summer class in Art Appreciation, which included me making a sculpting out of soap. It was a pretty intense class due to the fact that approximately five months were crammed into two, but I'm happy to say not only did I survive (which was the ultimate goal), but I thrived and took home an "A". God is SO good! Since then, I've really been trying to learn about balance. Balance between church, work, kids, boyfriend, and any social life. At the same time, life still continues on with everyday "stuff". Recently, there have been a lot of questions in my life like "How?" "When?" and "Where?" He's already answered the "Who?" (Thank you, Jesus). And many times I've found myself walking a fine line between pleading with God and telling Him what to do. Ever been there? So one day, as I got in my car for lunch, I said to Daddy, "So, here we go again..." and I began to dive into my list of issues. Then, in His ever so quiet, yet BOLD way, He spoke to my spirit and said, "Kristi, I am your Manager." Huh? And he said, "What does a manager do?" I immediately thought of a singer's manager, like a famous country artist...The manager sets the dates, makes the appointments, speaks on behalf of and plans every detail of the tour. All the artist does is show up. He said to me, "Everything you're concerned and worried about is MY job. I am your Manager. All you have to do is show up." Wow! There's freedom in that!
Then again this evening, while I was doing my hair, I started in - again. Because that's what I tend to do...dwell, think and try to figure out. And the Lord, once again, reminded me that it's not my place to figure out all my concerns. At that moment I began to say outloud..."Thank you, Lord, that you've taken care of everything and "I" don't have to worry about it!" The awesome thing is, if I am seeking the Lord's will in EVERY area of my life, I don't have to figure, plead, wonder or question what is going to happen or how things will occur, because HE wants His will for my life even more than I do! So I get to sit directly at His feet and watch as all He has in store for my life unfolds and falls into place. After all, He's the Manager of it all and knows how to run things MUCH better than I do. Thank you, Jesus!